imjustdrew

I’ve been stuck in this rut for a lifetime. Life sentence, confined and sublime. I can’t get to rent the tux, be in the party, get the favors. I’m not even the guest at times, just looking like the nosy neighbors. It’s time to change my expectations and really know who’s who. I have to do what I do. No one wants me in that slot. I get denied for that spot. All must change: the narrative, culture and the thinking. This current situation is beyond stinking. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this. This is the opposite of bliss. Often the brightest flowers don’t get picked. I really want this fixed. I just want to be normal and fit in. Yep still at my advanced age. It doesn’t stop like minimum wage. I’m not hating, I am just working through this thing. It appears I won’t wear that tux, always and never. I’ll be on the sidelines forever.

Father, husband, grandfather, uncle and Air Force veteran Arthur Newson is in for the fight of his life. Cancer and other affiliations are eating up his body and he’s fighting for his life.

He’s quite a man and I’m not just saying this because he’s my best friend’s father and a father figure to me.

Mr. Newson always gives great advice and words, is a kind man that will do anything for you. Recently during my two tough bouts, he provided me with the foot scooter during my injury. He was one of the first I called when I had to call in the family for my mom. He had great words per always. One was continuing to celebrate my mom’s legacy. I will do the same for him.

He’s been married for over 40 years to Kathy Newson, is a retired Air Force veteran, has two sons Rashad (Rayn) and Duane (Cyntrel) and three grandsons: Kamal, 21, Sir, 11.

He loves traveling, talking, grilling, and just being positive to anyone around. I’m so glad I know this man and I feel I can go to him with anything.

Regardless of how this spins, he made his mark and I want him to continue to be remembered.

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine

I’m patiently waiting on Fall. Changing leaves, cooler weather, football, apple cider, Halloween, I want it all! Yes I have Fall on the brain. There is so much to gain. I love football Friday nights. Lots of fun under the lights. There’s college Homecoming, Thanksgiving, football all weekend. Tailgates and hoodies are the bookend. That’s the time to vacation. Cuffing season begins and cuddling. Better get who you want, no befuddling. In between we have the fair and October the best month in sports. It’s possible it may be the best month of sorts. I’m ready for cocoa and my Halloween costume. Leaves falling, time for the moutsin air I will consume. School activities and festivals galore! There is so much more! I wish it were Fall year round. Outside of darkness and the flu, it’s the best season around

He’s a good man Charlie Brown! I can be all cool and down. You did find your king. Now you’re awaiting your crown and ring. If only I had known early. I wouldn’t have been so bitter and burly. Happiness is the main thing. I want to cheer and sing. I have felt so much better since. My feelings aren’t on the fence. It’s hard but you’re with the one. I hope that he is done. When you know you know. I see little and even I know. It will come my way for sure. I’ll be happy for you and he

This heat has me in a constant daze. It’s quite a haze. This is all but the dog days. Ugh these UV rays

I just want to see some refreshing rain. I have everything to gain. This stuff cannot sustain. I wish the trouble would refrain.

It’s both saddening without my two fave females. I miss the life, times and tales. I want it to be fun and fulfilling. The roof is the ceiling.

I’ve taken my vacation, I guess I’ll go swimming. Sometimes I just wanna nap, can’t go skimming.

I need self care before all of this OT and probate. I can’t afford to be late. I need my time to breathe.

Glad to see the town is growing and back to school is coming. I love the pics, fashion and backpack drives.

Summer haze is more bearable. I need to be more active and make my clothes more wearable.

Tubi has been on the lower end of streaming services for years. They do feature quality programming and cater to minorities. I interviewed Simone Winn a while back and she has a movie on Tubi.

The movie Simone was in wasn’t like some of these movies that are Tubi originals.

Just in case you haven’t seen some of these movies, they aren’t the best written, unknown actors and actresses and are basically X-rated. There are full frontal sex scenes scattered throughout the film. You may want to watch at night when the children are in bed.

It’s very stereotypical and low rate, similar to how BET had gotten for a period. It’s like BET took Baby Boy out of the VCR and Tubi put it into theirs.

I do see a lot of folks addicted to Tubi movies and for free entertainment until football starts, it’s not the worse thing to be watching nor doing.

It’s getting too hot to be out for too long when water isn’t involved so I wouldn’t say stop watching Tubi originals. Now if they charge, don’t watch until there’s more of a balance of Black/minority excellence and their “originals”.

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine

Thoughts, faults, flaws. You can catch these hands or these claws. I’m like Frogger, making my moves. You doubt and criticize me, I know what soothes. Who’s making you stay? I’m in charge, you can go if you don’t like what I say. Better yet, apply and do better than me. This I want to see. Guess what, you can’t do it! The loudest boos come from the cheapest seat. I’m one guy you’re not going to beat. I was caught off guard, now you have my eye. I got myself covered so you bet not lie. You need to be quiet and keep moving. Worrying about everyone else, worry about yourself! Keep it grooving. Your toxicity and hostility is not welcome. I’m not the one two nor three. Keep it moving gracefully. If you could do better, you would. That’s on all I own! Why are you acting like a teenage mean girl, we grown? You’re like Papa Doc, can’t say crap. If you’re full of energy and rage, go take a nap or lap

I’ve seen this one too many times. Won’t date me but go below me and my rhymes. This guy, WHET??? I’m humble but I gotta say he ain’t me. I will yell that gracefully. He cool for sure. You took a step back ma. Women don’t usually go backwards but sus you went back in time ya. Again WHET? I see your type is like Big. Big, ugly and black. Not beautiful black, crunchy and nasty like a crack. C’mon now! You can’t say jack about any gal I’m wit. She gonna be lit. We cool for sho. He definitely ain’t for show. I guess I see what you like. I may be big but I’m neat and clean. Still the coolest you seen. Hit me up when you’re done with him. I don’t mind finishing last. I refuse to recycle and dip back into my past

I’m alone, just me and the pets. The TV, house, land and your collectible sets. I’ll ensure your property is mine. Continue to rest on cloud 9. I’m sleepy but I will rest. I will continue to do my best. I need a mom on my side. That’s a void I cannot hide. The silence is peaceful and disturbing. The fact that I don’t see more relatives is perterb-ing. I still want to talk to you when I leave work or when I see a great image. I thought I saw you but it was just a mirage. After probate, getting affairs finalized, what is next? I will no longer see you sending a phone number nor text.

You Karens just love to antagonize, analyze and criticize. It’s as if there is nothing better nor good to say. Even Jesus didn’t have 100% approval. Why can’t these folks go about their day? What is wrong here? I just want to work and live. Every move I make is under scrutiny. Someone needs to stop before there’s a mutiny. This isn’t the old men from the Muppets. This also isn’t a slaveship not a bunch of puppets. I invite anyone to see how it is from my end. Wear my shoes. Ease up on the boos. It’s a lot of work and effort to do what I do. Unless you can relate, there’s nothing to say. Try it another day