Nubian Scream

You had me at hello, screaming at goodbye. I fortunately don’t want to die. I felt hurt and numb. 7 days passed and I also felt dumb. Outside, you’re a nubian queen. Inside you make me wanna scream. Ignorance! Flaky. Snaky. Sneaky. Well you do like money and are loosely into sales. I can’t believe I fell for your sales. I may or may not have bars. One thing for sure is you could sell used cars. Your nubian skin is appealing and glowing. Your hair in any style is lovely and flowing. Too bad the inside is corrupt. Your heart and soul are bankrupt. I can see why you’re alone. You don’t respect anything set in stone. Please stay where you are and we’ll keep it moving. I will continue grooving. I honestly wish you well. Good riddance and you can find another untruth to sell. I’ll sleep well tonight and I don’t know about you. Guilty consciences are real and they can reach you too. Every nubian woman isn’t a queen. They are simply a nightmare, a dark, terrible dream.

End The Battle

The fire inside me burns deep. I thought hard when I made that leap. I knew it was a risk. I didn’t mind since I wanted more than a kiss. I was willing to be cool with hanging. The times definitely are a changing. Now I’m hurt, bitter, angry and alone. This hits me right to the bone. You do no good by being fake. You couldn’t even remember my birthday cake. My grandpa said year ago watch those that smile a lot. They’re often in pain, up to something and are something they’re not. Think of clowns, Robin Williams and the Joker. I don’t want to be the poker. This is the bear and I have to tell. I want this battle inside of me to dispel. I want to feel joy and happy again. You can still do it; we can both win. I forgive easily but I will not be the fool. You will get mad and call me a tool. Doesn’t matter because I’m not at war here. I just want my forever dear. Heck all I asked for was dinner and drinks. Are you getting rid of the bar? You will see me from afar. Oh you will party but with me it’s a battle. I won’t be treated like cattle. Bye for now, I must retreat. This is more devastating than the August heat


You don’t seem to get me. Desire me, continue to live care free. I just wanted to hang and vibe. You make it seem like this is a bribe. I can see if there’s no appeal. I can’t see why you couldn’t just be real. Being nice is cool but honesty is king. I called and you let your phone ring. You partied with other guys while a real man awaited. Was my birthday wish met to be belated? It seems so. I can see the answer is no. Will I give you another chance? Unsure if my heart can take more hurt in advance. Give me another sign, reach out. You leave too much doubt. I think we may have to separate. You are always too late. I need a woman not an unsure child. Your headspace is much too wild. I need love and peace. You bring me drama despair and a lease. I want to buy and you’re not letting me rent. Got my nose wide open and neck all bent. Either way, it doesn’t look well. As always, time will tell. I will heal and be ok. I’m a great guy and I don’t care what you say


This poem is very interpretative and open but it’s dedicated to the memory of my recently deceased friend Big Mike Smith. He definitely was a man’s man that wasn’t afraid of emotion and neither am I.

The side of your face and that smile. Why couldn’t we just keep you for a while? You lit up the room like a festival of lights. You braved the storms, fought many fights. There were no enemies in sight. Making for a smooth and easy plight. I’m happy that I knew you and you were here. I will definitely hold your memory dear. Game films and pictures are gold. There will continue to be many tales of you told. You may have went to your forever home. Your presence and vibe will forever roam. Wherever there’s a football, towel or even a star. We all know you’re not far. None of wanted you to go. You left so fast you didn’t want us to know. You can be the true star from above. Always having the shine and love. You will forever be missed. Now you have your crown and no more being dismissed.

Rest in Power my guy and thanks for all of the kind words!

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine #scaredeyes

Some of the many things I enjoy.

I was writing my employee bio for work plus I am currently trying to get a young lady’s attention. Therefore I am trying to narrow down what I am interested in. It turns out a lot of things.

Here are some of the most major ones:

Reading, writing, watching TV, aquariums, painting minis, technology, social media, animals, hanging with friends and family, the coffee shop, mountains, the gym, eating good food, sports (especially football, basketball, baseball and NASCAR), my cup collection, traveling, driving, eating inside Mexican and Asian restaurants, going to movies, cake, caring for my beard, children, comedy and laughing, swimming, grilling out, cooking, sleeping in, good vibes, hugs, my birthday, Fall, my college (#wuforever), great music, slushies, and comfortable clothes like my AND1 shorts.

Speaking of shorts, this may be my short list. Also, as you were,…

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Housewares I do not need to buy nor use.

I use many different housewares and accessories when cooking. A visit to my home will display the area where my Ninja Foodi, crockpot, waffle iron and other such accessories are. I also have an Instapot and air fryer but both are in my utility building.

I use many regularly and do own an oven and a traditional grill that I utilize. However there are a few devices that I see no use for.

1. Egg boiler. Umm, excuse me? How crowded is your stove or hot plate that you don’t have space or time to boil a few eggs. I have to question many aspects of your culinary skillset if you cannot boil an egg in the era of YouTube and TikTok.

2. Milkshake machine. Unless you have carpal tunnel and somehow not a blender, there is no real usage for this. I posted in the laniera74 blog last year how to make a milkshake from scratch. I think many folks have gotten spoiled by the ice cream parlor or fast food industry that they cannot make their own milkshakes. This was a skill I’m glad I took to college with me as many ironically didn’t know how to use.

3. Large scale griddle. I say this only because I mostly cook for myself and my mom and we don’t need that much food. I have a small electrical griddle that does the job and is portable. Having something big takes up too much space and is expensive with gas.

4. Deep fryer. I have an air fryer, a Ninja Foodi and an electrical turkey fryer. Plus I can fry things the old fashioned way. This would be a redundant waste for me.

5. Sandwich or quesadilla maker. Ok now we get to the point of if you really need an oven or not. I have so many other resources for making or grilling a sandwich.

I always welcome feedback and do not judge others. Heck some of the housewares I use or can use are already in question. They’re honestly just nice to have. You have to really think if you’re going to need something or just want it because everyone else has it.


Travel tips for young graduates and people

It’s another graduation season, one of my favorite of the year. It’s also a greater sense of normalcy since 2019. This also means more traveling for graduates and even young newlyweds.

Since I’ve traveled often, I feel I have tips to offer the younger generation here.

Know the climate where you are going. Dress for there and not for here. Always carry a jacket regardless.

Adjust for time changes and jet lags. They are for real! Give yourself an extra recovery day following a huge trip. If you’re going international, I recommend a week if possible. That’s an entirely different time zone and change.

For my Southerners traveling north of Virginia, bring your own sugar and sweet tea and grits ingredients. You’re not going to find that easily in the North and Midwest.

Don’t feel like you have to go 5 star yet in eating and housing. Your generation had Airbnbs and explore the local favorites. Stay away from chains if you can since you are traveling and can get McDonald’s and BK almost anytime.

Have your carry-on (if flying) packed with airport regulated essentials, some extra clothes and some cash. This is where I recommend banking or having a national credit union to avoid fees.

Have fun! This is the best time in your life to travel and see our wonderful world. You will definitely have more opportunities but now you have more freedom and less responsibilities. Soak it in!

Congrats to the class of 2022 and may you continue to dream and excel!

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine

Find Your Happy Place

I think many go daily just through the motions. They definitely aren’t doing what they really want or what they’re destined to do.

It’s obvious when someone isn’t in their happy place. They can only put on “airs” for so long. Many folks are quitting their jobs for more peace. Others are holding onto their jobs due to fear of recession with so much nationwide inflation.

There is still hope. Make time every week to do what you love. Whether it’s collecting vinyl records to gardening or reading, don’t deprive yourself of that in which you deserve. Get that in so that your peace is protected and you recharge well.

Continue to see me for more happiness and good vibes.

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine

Too Much? Just in Case You Didn’t Know

I have a pet peeve where when someone tells me something is too much or I’m not good enough, I feel the need to prove them wrong. You can call it an inferiority complex. To me, I’m just really competitive, have a huge heart and hate hearing the word no from folks that don’t know me well.

I will briefly educate anyone on my past experiences of 44 years in case you think I haven’t experienced enough or I can’t handle “too much.”

I maintained good grades all through school, undergrad and grad school. This includes As and Bs in a tough computer science program and a 3.9 GPA in an MBA program. I did much of this without advanced grooming, help and oftentimes very little money. I grinded, studied hard, and simply wanted it.

Physically, I worked my way up the depth chart in football and started my senior at offensive line over folks more talented and athletic than myself. I ran competitively for 4 years and won 2 age groups, ran 9 half marathon and 3 full marathons, one of those being the brutal and hilly Kings Mountain marathon. I have lost and maintained weight many times in my life, losing 100 pounds in my early 30s and 50 in my mid 30s.

I have been involved in trivia, competitive eating, I have successfully climbed the ladder for a major company, all while battling mental illness, obesity, grief, socioeconomic and racists and caring for a physically and mentally ill mother.

I have managed time well enough to excel in school, hold down a job and side hustles consistently for 27 years, be involved in the community, go to social events, handle multiple bank accounts, and train and tutor others. I also have written a book and have two active blogs. I always find ways to succeed and I’m not afraid to ask for help or questions if I’m in a bind.

Basically much of this is how #imjustdrew was created in 2016. Facebook is about to limit my blogs so YouTube and TikTok will be my focus. Obstacles breed creativity and I continue to stay encouraged and know the best is yet to come.

Therefore, before you think something is too much, read this blog first and learn my story!

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine #scaredeyes

What Am I Griping About

I saw this on a FB post the other day. The intent was to gripe about something that wasn’t political, Roe V Wade, gas prices, or Russia/Ukraine. Therefore, here are mine from my latest weekend.

Why in the world didn’t Gray Collegiate have a concession stand at their playoff baseball game the other day?

Why is my uncle so obsessed with baseball? He’s incarcerated and wants all the details, even inning by inning. He will have to be more clear with me when he calls on Sunday.

How can a 14 year old fall through a 50 foot well with concrete? Better yet, why isn’t that well insulated?

What is up with all of the local deaths and earthquakes near Elgin? Mercury being in retrograde does not help.

Why do people STILL not stay through the credits of a Marvel movie. Overall it was better when I saw the new Doctor Strange but you still had some rushing out. SMH 14 years of the MCU and still this nonsense.

When are folks gonna realize UFC is a better product than boxing? Only time I like to watch is connect with some of my circle (non UFC fans, pray for them saints).

It’s not hard right now to get a job or a pet. Problem is neither may not be the one you want.

The days truly fly by as you get older. I swear 12 hours are just gone. Too bad it doesn’t work the same at the JOB.

FB is trying to limit #imjustdrew. I was already ahead of it, learning Tik Tok and focusing on my YouTube channel. Summer is coming (another shout out to David Fink).

Now I’m gonna blog on my original page and get ready for my work week to begin!

#imjustdrew #fromdarktosunshine