Always and Never

I’ve been stuck in this rut for a lifetime. Life sentence, confined and sublime. I can’t get to rent the tux, be in the party, get the favors. I’m not even the guest at times, just looking like the nosy neighbors. It’s time to change my expectations and really know who’s who. I have to do what I do. No one wants me in that slot. I get denied for that spot. All must change: the narrative, culture and the thinking. This current situation is beyond stinking. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this. This is the opposite of bliss. Often the brightest flowers don’t get picked. I really want this fixed. I just want to be normal and fit in. Yep still at my advanced age. It doesn’t stop like minimum wage. I’m not hating, I am just working through this thing. It appears I won’t wear that tux, always and never. I’ll be on the sidelines forever.